…I regret to inform you that this will be, not only my final post of 2012, but the final post of this blog entirely. I will either be starting a new blog in an undisclosed location (feel free to either leave a comment or message me on twitter or email me or whatever if you would like to know if/when that does happen), or I will just keep an old-fashioned journal or working on writing a memoir or working on my graphic novel or some other great work of non-fiction that I will shop around as fiction, or finally sitting down and working on all of those web comics I’ve been thinking about getting started or any other number of ideas that could also probably fit into this run-on sentence.
Having this blog has been wonderful. Everyone has been so encouraging in my journey in navigating my way through the move from Raleigh to Chicago, starting over as a improvisor in a new city, handling (both greatly and rather poorly) the hardest break up of my life, becoming acclimated to the actual world of working both on and off the stage here, and my many, many, MANY posts about death and how it causes me to maintain weird relationships with friends old and new! Ooh, and the occasional work of fiction, or shitty free verse poetry inspired by the sounds of the city.
I want to thank you whether you are subscribed reader or a person stumbling onto this blog for the first time, for taking the time to read things. For all who have commented, your comments always brought a smile to my face. A few brought tears to my eyes. I remember distinctly, after writing one of the posts about lacking in confidence in both life and improv, and wanting to be better, reading a comment from someone (shout out to Jay Fralick what whaaaat) and literally tearing up on the Blue Line train because it was such a sweet message. You’ve all been great. You’ve all been kind. I want to hug it out like whoa with you guys.
As 2013 begins, and with a new set of goals and already some intense road blocks ahead of me, I look back on 2012 and see so much joy, pain, anger, happiness, love, sadness, stupidity, and wackiness. I cannot possibly put into words how much I appreciate that you have all been here with me. I’m not the best at being open with my feelings and emotions, or with details of my own life and experiences, but this blog and your acceptance has pushed me closer to feeling like a normal person who can carry on conversations about normal(ish) things for extended amounts of time and not feel like I’m forcing people to listen to things they shouldn’t care about.
Growing up, I was always told that I didn’t matter and I was insignificant. This year, you helped me realize that I was told wrong. I am eternally grateful for you!
Be excellent to each other,